now 'ow'd I do it agen : "that" then that or that then "this" then "that"? nan's head's a sack of cabling smeared in lard. plaques harden like bacon grease gluing memories in a lump. when did the lump become a lump? the excruciating breakage of familiarity. the world turned uncanny as protein gluts brain cracks. no soapy fluid washing amyloid away. fibrillary weeds broke through the soil of memory. I 'av' yer all 'ere sumw'ere… arr…there's you n' yer c'us'n—& yer great-grandad... whare's ya wife? in't she wiv ya? we divorced nan. (nan'll ask again in a couple of minutes— we're all fading aren't we nan... how long until I'm not a face anymore nan? is it still seeing if you observe only fragments? we'll never meet again.